Loss and Attachment

Last night I discovered I lost all my writings. I felt complete loss. My last 3 years of journal writing were deleted/corrupted. I am sick to my stomach. But why? I mean what am I attached to. Those writings reflect who I was this past few years. I know it's not who I am now but watching and reading my transformation has been....ego fulfilling? Wow, this is taking me a while to absorb.